Oh, I remember ... I looked at Lito and said, "What would it be to have another one?" You're going to think I'm crazy but I actually planned a little girl!! That's a story for another day :)
There are so many things that change from having one child to having two. Somehow you get even less sleep (as if I was getting enough sleep when it was just Lito!!). Somehow I'm eating less but gaining weight (how in the world ... I still can't figure that one out!). Somehow I have to schedule in time with my own husband (scheduling hubby time just takes out some of the romance!). Somehow I have figured out how to ignore piles of junk and dust bunnies (I never thought that would be possible, I used to be a neat freak!).
There were definitely some things that I didn't count on ...
- I didn't realize that it was so much harder to 'organize' nap times. They take naps at different times so I always have my hands full with one or both of the kids!
- I didn't think that I would need to schedule in showers too! There are days that I can't even remember if I took a shower for the day! Please don't tell anyone that!!
- I didn't count on all the conflicting feelings I would have with both of the kids ... I feel bad for Solana Leila because she doesn't get my undivided attention (like Lito did) and I feel bad for Lito because I have to push him aside sometimes to deal with Leila (and I see it in his face, the disappointment of not being the center of my world).
It's such a struggle to juggle it all! But I wouldn't change it one bit! I truly enjoy being there for both Lito and Leila, I love learning from their new-world views, I love getting their hugs and smooches, I love watching them learn and understand new things, I love hearing their voices in the house, and I love watching my husband light up when they do something new and funny! My kids have given me a totally new perspective on life and for that I am so eternally grateful!!
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