My Confessions

I have a few confessions!  Ever since the last post, I have received several comments from friends and co-workers ...

"How do you have time to write a blog?"
"That's so amazing, you're such a great mom!"
"You're hilarious! My kids aren't that funny!"

So here are my confessions:

• I don't have time! Just like every other parent (mom or dad), I have no time for me. I wake up at 5 AM and don't go to bed till around 11 PM. So I make time. That means sometimes I don't answer my friends' phone calls; whether that is to save my friend from the irrational conversation that would consume us both (since kids love to get their parents' attention the second they pick up the phone!) or whether it is to save my kids from their angry mom who gets easily upset from not being able to have a rational, adult conversation!  Sometimes I stay up past 11 PM to ensure I post my memories.  Sometimes, having no time to myself also means foregoing posts so I can have intentional time with my family!  I'm sure you make hard choices every day as well.
• I'm really not a great mom; I'm no different than every other working parent. I have struggles and "bad days" but I choose not to focus on that in this blog. I started this blog for one purpose. No, it wasn't to share my whimsical moments with the world (although that's been terrifying and fun too!). My sole purpose was so that I wouldn't forget the positive side of being a parent. Honestly there are days when I question my decision to be a parent!  As horrible as that may sound, I recognize that it is a feeling inside of me that comes from sheer exhaustion and losing sight of what's important. So I hoped that by starting this blog, I could have a space to go to, in order to remind myself of the beauty that surrounds me, amidst the daily chaos!
• My kids are no funnier than yours!  I simply have the determination to do nothing less than enjoy my time with them (and what a blessing it is).  I truly cherish their innocent stroll through life and want to document it all, every second of it!  But I really don't have time for all of that, lol, so I am particular about sharing the most amuzing of them here!

I do have a secondary goal with my posts ... I hope that one day my kids can read back on these and know just how much I loved being with them throughout their childhood, long after I'm gone. I am humbled because I never thought I would WANT to be a parent. And when life smacked me in the face with the possibility of not having them, it was an easy decision. I wouldn't trade it for the world!

Love You Lito and Leila!